'Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.' - Philippians 4:8

Here is something that fits all those categories:

'God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.' 2 Corinthians 5:21

I will think about this.

Sometimes...

Sometimes...
the only thing that keeps me going is the hope of seeing Jesus face to face.

Sometimes...
in the times where I feel like the pain will never end, all I can do is close my teary eyes, whisper the name 'Jesus', and rest in the knowledge that He will return, I will see Him, and all this stuff will be made right.

Sometimes...
I have to talk to myself, out loud, and tell myself that the gospel is true, that grace is real, that God is in control and He loves me, that He uses even pain for good in the lives of those who love Him.

Sometimes...
God makes me aware that the Bible is the only place I will find truth, and so I cling to it for all I've got.

Sometimes...
I remember that God is my shelter in this storm.

Sometimes...
I forget.

Sometimes...
God gives me eyes to behold His beauty and love Him for it even when everything else is making me hurt and cry.

Sometimes...
things just hurt and everything is black.

Sometimes...
I wonder how much more painful this world could possibly be...and yet know that there is much more pain in this world than I have ever even begun to taste.

This is one of those times.

But in the time when Jesus returns:

'He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.' - Revelation 21:4

A song...

I am hard pressed on every side
but I'm not crushed
I feel pulled to pieces but inside I know I'm not
Feel's like the world's caving in
Find it hard to breathe
The water is rising won't you come and rescue me

(bridge)
I'm on my knees
O God please come to me

(Chorus)
I fall into your loving arms
You wrap me up and I'm secure
Patiently you whisper to me you have a plan
To hold on it won'r be long and you understand
You know my every need
You won't abandon me

Sick inside today I'm struggling to pray
And my head is spinning cause I cannot see the way
I'm in need of direction
everything seems so unclear
O my God are you out there or is this falling on deaf ears?

(bridge)
I'm on my knees
O God please come to me

(chorus)

Miracles You will do
as I come and put my hope in you

- Lou and Nathan Fellingham

This is why I am here...

Splurges of a muddled mind...

Here are some of the contents of my mind at the moment:

THE FUTURE - what should I do? How long for? Where? When? What are my motivations?

It would be cool to be either really big or really small.

WORK - burdens, confusions, stresses related to my job.

Autumn is nice.

Where has my passion for the gospel gone?

I keep imagining I can hear an old lady grinding her teeth and it's making me feel a bit on edge!

I need a hug.

I need to learn lots of stuff about prayer.

THE GOSPEL IS TRUE!!! GRACE IS REAL!!! I AM FORGIVEN!!! JESUS IS ENOUGH!!!